Just Yesterday


For R. 
On the eve of your second birthday.

Two years ago today, I would meet you tomorrow.

Everyone said first babies came late, 
but you came nine days early.
7 pounds, 9 ounces, and perfect from head to toe.

Maybe you cried when you first came out, 
but I don’t remember.
I do remember the first time you laid on my chest.
The first time I saw your dimples.

They put you in the bassinet,
and I pushed you down the hallway to our room.
Slowest and proudest walk of my life.

Jordan and I so exhausted we could hardly keep our eyes open, 
yet unable to sleep because we wanted to make sure you were okay.

Two years ago today, I would meet you tomorrow.

You passed your hearing test with flying colors,
startled awake at the softest sound.
Cried during your entire newborn photoshoot at the hospital.

The nurse had to show us how to change your diaper,
wrap a swaddle,
adjust the straps on the car seat.

We left the hospital at 5:00 pm and drove home during rush-hour traffic.
I kept reaching back to make sure you were breathing.

Two years ago today, I would meet you tomorrow.

Flashing two dimples and looking just like your daddy.

You slept, and we couldn’t stop staring.
You yawned, and we snapped pictures.
You sneezed, and we laughed.

You couldn’t do much, just laid in my arms.
But you were so curious, looking at everything and everyone around you.

Then, I blinked.

And you held up your head
and sat up
and rolled over
and crawled
and walked

You smiled and called me mama.

Two years ago today, I would meet you tomorrow.

And yet, somehow,
please ignore this cliché,
but it really does feel like it all happened 
just yesterday.

*Repost (slightly edited) from last year.
Maria said...

Oh my gosh. Stop. I cannot. :)


Happiest of birthdays little R!

Torrie said...

Ah, love it! Happy birthday, R! Hope you guys enjoy every moment of the day :)

Nadine said...

Oh my goodness my eyes are over here on the verge of major water works reading this!!! SO sweet!!! I seriously cant believe how fast these kids grow and change and it seems like the first days were just yesterday. R is two? Shut up! I dont believe it I tell you!

Amy @ A Desert Girl said...

I am blinking back the tears!! So beautiful, Amanda. Happy birthday to your precious R.

Jen said...

Oh my goodness, this is amazing! I am in tears because I will be writing my daughters 1 year post soon.

StephTheBookworm said...

Oh I love it! Happy birthday, little one!

Kristen @ See You In A Porridge said...

oh my gosh, gave me chills. i'm not even her parent and it feels like yesterday to me. happy birthday to R!

Unknown said...

So, so sweet! Happy Birthday!

Audrey Louise said...

This is the sweetest. I hope you copied this down for her so she can read it when she's older! <3

Jenny Evans said...

Isn't it bizarre how much has changed in 2 years? It feels like a million years ago and just yesterday all at the same time.

The Girl who Loved to Write said...

All the tears, all of them.

Rach said...

Oh my goodness, I can't handle this post right now. The past three and a half weeks have flown by already. I know I'm going to blink and she'll be leaving me for college. All the tears!